True Feelings

It is said that Stalin, the general secretary of the Soviet Union, would gather his friends, drink, and enjoy parties after finishing work.

It was a story I used to pass over without much thought, thinking only that he was remarkably thorough. But hearing it again after becoming the leader of a nation, I realize there is nothing more horrifying.

Not a single decision made by a nation's leader is trivial. Even an issue that appears minor can possess enough power to determine the futures of dozens or even hundreds of people.

Some people become arrogant when given such power, while others feel burdened by it... I am closer to the latter.

Perhaps it's because I remember living as an ordinary citizen in my previous life. I simply can't brush off even the smallest matters.

After handling my work so diligently, I become mentally exhausted. I feel like abandoning parties and everything else, lying down in bed, and clearing my head.

To drink and party in that state? The truly frightening part is being able to do one's work properly the next day after that.

To be honest, I don't have the confidence to do that.

That was why I hadn't touched alcohol for the past few months. With some free time finally available, it was only natural that I thought of drinking.

"...And loosen up that stiff atmosphere a little. Even if I've become emperor, there's no need to act so formal, you know."...