87 What Probability Can't Explain

In short, I ultimately failed to save Niobe.

I alone had to watch the death of the child everyone loved.

I don't even remember how many days and nights I spent begging Hyacen.

Hyacen comforted me every time, telling me it wasn't my fault, but only because he didn't know the truth.

I had once been jealous of Niobe, and the viper that killed her was none other than me.

Terrified that one momentary mistake would make her disappear from this world, I made a foolish choice.

Having robbed Niobe even of the time to say farewell to everyone, I couldn't receive a single favorable look from anyone in the imperial family when I returned carrying her corpse.

[The Fourth Princess murdered the Third Princess.]

I hated myself so much that I couldn't bear it.

At the time, as I agonized over which magic to use, the only basis I could come up with was expected value...