Chapter 56
I was going insane.
For the two nights and three days when Mom and Master were away, I had no choice but to spend each miserable day tormented by all sorts of delusions and auditory hallucinations.
The same question kept repeating in my head.
Is this really what you want?
Are you just going to sit there and watch?
Even if Mom lives a life worse than a beast like this, can you bear it?
Even if our family collapses like this, can you endure it?
‘.....’
I couldn't give any answer to those questions.
To be honest, I both wished for and dreaded the collapse of our family.
What on earth was wrong with my mind? Deep in my heart sat a desire for ruin.
Just what part of me had broken, and how?
“Seong-min~ You need a handjob, don't you?♥”
At least I was able to endure because I had Hee-yeon.
Now that I had no news of Mom, and no word whatsoever from Mistress's videos.
At least Hee-yeon stayed by my side and told me her story, keeping me from going completely insane.
“Where did we leave off yesterday?”
“...At how you fell into Master's hands... That's as far as I heard.”
Yesterday, I received a handjob while listening to Hee-yeon tell me how she had fallen into Master's hands.
And that story had been nothing short of incredible.
It made my chest ache and tears spill, yet it turned me on like crazy.
It was a terribly sad story, but it turned me on.
“You're going to hear the next part too, right?”
“.....Yeah.”
“Pffft. As expected, you're beyond saving.”
“.....”
I had nothing to say.
Just as she said, I was beyond saving.
Even after hearing all of Hee-yeon's story yesterday, even after hearing all her true feelings... I had ultimately chosen to stay here.
I had brushed away the hand reaching out to save me and made the idiotic choice to remain here and await my ruin.
‘I'll tell you how I really feel.’
I searched my memory.
Yesterday, she had started speaking like that.
After entering this room to give me my usual handjob, she had suddenly hugged me from behind and said she would tell me her true feelings.
She said she would tell me why she had fallen into Master's hands and what had happened behind it.
This was the story behind it.
‘It all started because of my ex-boyfriend. That bitch Lee Ha-young deliberately approached me and destroyed our relationship.’
Up to that point, it was within my expectations.
I had already seen Master instruct Mistress to do it when I hacked KakaoTalk and watched Mistress's corruption video.
Mistress had carried it out exactly as instructed.
‘At first, I couldn't believe it. The Lee Ha-young I knew wasn't that kind of person. The reason I was able to give up on you was... because Lee Ha-young was by your side. She was someone I could never beat, and you looked happier with her than with me...’
Hee-yeon had liked me for much longer than I'd thought.
She had carried a one-sided love alone, suffered alone, and quietly forced herself to let go.
She had been an innocent girl who liked a pathetic guy like me.
‘But I wasn't really angry that my boyfriend had been stolen from me. No, I was extremely angry, but that was because Lee Ha-young had betrayed me, not because I'd lost my boyfriend. I hadn't liked him that much in the first place...’
Hee-yeon's feelings had remained unchanged.
She said that even then, because she still had feelings for me, she hadn't particularly resented her boyfriend despite losing him that way.
Since she had dated him not because she liked him, but to forget me, she said she had felt sorry for him.
‘I couldn't understand it. Why had Lee Ha-young suddenly become like that, and why had you stopped answering my messages and disappeared? Everything was confusing. That's when Master appeared before me.’
Master approached the confused Hee-yeon.
He told her he would explain why Mistress had become that way and lured Hee-yeon in.
That was how Hee-yeon learned the truth from Master.
‘I was furious. At the time, I really wanted to tear Master apart and kill him. Lee Ha-young becoming like that, and you doing that at the cooking competition—it was all because of Master. So I tried to report this to the police. But... the police didn't move the way I wanted them to.’
The reason the police did not act was simple.
First, they couldn't identify Master's true identity, and because Mistress's sex with Master had been entirely consensual, it was difficult to apply any criminal charge.
Besides, neither instructing her to steal her boyfriend nor the series of acts that altered her mind could be charged if they were dismissed as ‘part of a game couples play together.’
In the end, Hee-yeon began meeting Master regularly to find his weakness.
‘Looking back, it's ridiculous. Dealing with Master to find evidence. But I must have been that desperate. You know this too, but back then, you two were everything to me. I wanted to get you both back somehow. So every week, I risked my safety and went to meet Master with a recorder secretly hidden on me.’
Hee-yeon arranged to meet Master at a café every Tuesday.
To lure Master there, she had boldly said something like this, according to her.
‘You. You're telling me what you did because you want to see my reaction, right? So you can enjoy watching my reaction? Fine, I'll hear it all. Go on, keep running your mouth.’
Master said he had taken a liking to Hee-yeon back then.
Apparently, Hee-yeon had stimulated Master's competitive spirit.
In any case, that was how Hee-yeon's meetings with Master continued.
But these meetings also failed to go according to Hee-yeon's intentions.
‘You know this too, but Master is different. He's incredible. Every time I talked with Master, I found myself telling him things about myself. It happened before I knew it. He drew out the feelings buried deep in my heart, and I ended up exposing them to him.’
Master had drawn out the ugly feelings hidden deep inside Hee-yeon.
He had helped her release the negative emotions she had bottled up while Mistress took me, the person she loved, away from her.
At first, Hee-yeon had refused to acknowledge them, but eventually she admitted everything.
And around then, Master made Hee-yeon an offer.
‘Master proposed sex to me then. He said that if I could last through seven rounds of sex with him, he would give you to me. Of course I refused. I didn't even need to think about it.’
Master's first offer was rejected.
Up to this point, Hee-yeon had been perfectly normal, and she said she had found Master, who wanted to have sex with her, utterly disgusting.
But Hee-yeon's thinking changed beginning with their next meeting.
Because Master showed Hee-yeon recent photos of Mistress.
‘Kheuheuheu.... It was incredible. To think that 'that Lee Ha-young' had been ruined so hideously. The photos were truly incredible. Her ruined face, the way she drank piss, the way she gobbled down Master's semen as food... It was really... the best.’
Hee-yeon said she had been genuinely happy to see Mistress's downfall.
The inferiority she had felt toward Mistress, along with the misery of having to bless me and Mistress because we looked happy, exploded all at once, and the seed of hatred blossomed.
‘After that, I looked forward to meeting Master every week. Master and I would happily talk while looking at the ruined Ha-young. Looking back, I was already going crazy then. I had fallen into Master's trap.’
Hee-yeon said she had become so absorbed in Mistress's ruined state that she had even forgotten her goal of saving Mistress and me.
Then one day, a video brought about a major change in Hee-yeon's feelings.
‘Tuesday, eight p.m. It was like any other time. I entered the café expecting ruined photos of Lee Ha-young. But what Master handed me was a video letter from Lee Ha-young. Even now, thinking about that video makes me tremble with rage.’
The video letter from Mistress that Master showed her.
That video letter was still saved on Hee-yeon's phone.
Hee-yeon played the video letter in front of me.
[Have you been well? I heard you've been doing pointless shit after that trashy ex-boyfriend of yours was stolen from you. I had a good time fucking your ex. His dick was fucking pathetic. You're amazing for hanging around a loser like that~]
Mistress's video letter was vicious.
Her tone of voice, expression, atmosphere, and manner of speaking—all of it.
She spoke as though she were looking down on Hee-yeon with genuine contempt.
[And what, kihi-hi-hi. You're going to save my masochistic slave, Tiny-Dick Seong-min? That fucking loser? You said you loved him so desperately, didn't you? Oh, I'm tearing up. I really am. How did you stand it all this time? While you were sobbing your eyes out in your room, I was rolling around like crazy with Seong-min.]
Mistress's video letter.
Hee-yeon showed it to me while biting down on her lower lip with an expression like an evil spirit.
The video letter did not end there.
[Ah♥ That tiny-dicked bastard Seong-min. His dick may be small, but he sure is fun to torment♥ His nipples, anus, armpits, and cock—I've had my way with all of them. Now he calls me ‘Mistress’ and serves me. So you just keep cowering there. How dare you try to come at me without even knowing your place? You're usually good at knowing your place, aren't you? Seong-min is mine. He can never. No matter what happens. Escape me. So if you understand, stay down. You hypocritical bitch, pretending to be a good girl.]
Friends who had been torn completely apart.
At that point, Hee-yeon had apparently screamed and caused a disturbance inside the café.
Master then proposed once again that she have sex with him, promising that if she endured seven rounds, he would send Mistress into the abyss.
In the end, Hee-yeon accepted the offer.
‘But you know the result, don't you? I collapsed during the fifth round. I became a slave bitch who swore eternal loyalty to Master. Even so, Master still gave me a chance. He sent that bitch Lee Ha-young to the Savior, and apparently there's a good chance she'll become his slave there. Then you and I can live like this, cozy and happy, under Master's care.’
Saying that, Hee-yeon looked at me with eyes filled with madness.
She pushed my fully erect cock into her pussy and kept whispering in my ear that she would get pregnant and that we should build a happy family together.
But I couldn't answer her.
‘.....Seong-min. Then, shall I tell you the truth I've really been keeping hidden?’
When I gave no answer, she began speaking in a serious voice.
Then she pulled my cock out, hugged me from behind, and continued.
‘You know I'm still somewhat sane, don't you? Right? I'm not completely crazy like Lee Ha-young.’
I quietly nodded.
Hee-yeon remained silent for quite a long time, perhaps needing time to organize her thoughts.
At last, she spoke in a tearful voice.
‘Then let's... go back. It's not too late yet. Before we go completely insane, let's stop and go back. Your family is in danger too.’
‘.....’
‘Actually... I'm making a bet with Master. If I can't make you mine over the next month, then I've agreed to officially become Master's. He promised to make me completely his woman and sever my attachment to you entirely.’
‘.....’
‘So, Seong-min. Please, I'm begging you. Hold on to me. Abandon Lee Ha-young and choose me. If, if you don't want that either... if you really don't... then just get out of here. I can help you.’
‘....’
‘Seong-min... I'm at my limit too. I'm going insane here little by little. I... I've really come to love that bastard too. That loathsome bastard of a dog.... I truly love him! So before I go completely insane, you at least... please, you at least...’
My chest felt as though it would split open.
Just as I'd expected, Hee-yeon had one foot in this insane situation, and if I accepted her, we could escape this place.
But in the end, I made the worst possible choice.
‘.....Hee-yeon.’
‘.....Yeah, Seong-min. Tell me.’
‘I understand how you feel. I'm sorry I didn't realize it until now. That you... liked me this much...’
‘.....’
‘I understand you. Just as you love me, I love Ha-young.’
‘.....Ha...haha...hahaha...’
‘So please, at least you get out of here. I'm already ruined. I'm an irredeemable bastard who gets aroused by watching you degrade yourself. It's already too late for me.’
‘Y-you're saying you'll choose this crazy life... this nonsensical life? Really...? Really...? Is that what you truly mean?’
‘I don't know. I don't know myself either. I just... I can't do anything. Nothing at all here...’
Countless droplets fell onto my shoulders.
Hot tears streamed down her cheeks.
Hee-yeon hugged me, sobbing.
She said in a quavering voice.
‘Then... then let's do this. There's still about two weeks left. Until then... I'll wait for you. If you watch the video of Lee Ha-young being taken by the Savior... you might change your mind. So....’
‘.....’
‘W-when Lee Ha-young goes to the Savior, you won't need to wait for that bitch anymore, right? ...You don't have to love me. J-just answer that you'll choose me then. That way, we can avoid the worst, right? If Lee Ha-young doesn't come back and I go even more insane here, then you'll really be left all alone.’
‘.....Why are you going this far for someone like me? What am I, anyway?’
‘Then let me ask you the opposite. What is that bitch Lee Ha-young to you, that you're going to ruin your whole life for her?’
‘...It isn't only because of Ha-young. She was the catalyst, yes, but I get intense pleasure from seeing something valuable break. And I want to keep seeing things like that.’
‘.....You're not sane either. You're completely crazy.’
‘Yeah. That's right.’
‘Then I guess all I can say is that I'm crazy too. What are you, anyway... that I'm this obsessed with you? How did I come to love you this much?’
A silence continued for some time.
Soon afterward, Hee-yeon left, saying we should rest for the day.
Then the next day came, and we gathered in this room again.
“Hey. What are you thinking so hard about?”
Hee-yeon was making a sullen face as she gripped my cock.
I answered with a lonely smile.
“Nothing. So, what are you going to talk about today?”
“Pffft. You're a fucking bastard.”
“...Well, that's true.”
“Whew. Today, I'll tell you the story♥ of how I was brought down by Master.”
-Fwoosh!
Even in this situation, my cock stiffened hard.
Imagining Hee-yeon being corrupted by Master made blood rush to my cock.
“Heh heh. Look at you popping right up. Are you already horny?”
“Yeah. I want to hear your story. Hurry.”
“All right. If you want to go crazy, I can go crazy too.”