Chapter 83
"...Boss. Then I'll go to that side."
"..."
When I didn't answer, Emma turned off the light, approached the bed, and laid down.
Squish.
As soon as Emma laid down, my concerns immediately became reality.
Because the bed was narrow, Emma and I were immediately pressed together with our whole bodies.
Squish, squish.
An incredibly blissful sensation was felt from my arm touching Emma's soft skin.
What drove me even crazier than that was the smell.
...Does she alone use shampoo in this Wild West?'
Of course, there was no way things like shampoo or body wash existed in this era.
But just the sweet scent coming from Emma's skin made me feel dazed as if intoxicated.
"Good night, Boss."
"...You too."
With that greeting, Emma closed her eyes.
Seeing that, I tightly closed my eyes too, but...
Thump, thump, thump.
My heart was beating like crazy, so I couldn't fall asleep.
"Haa..."
So I turned my body towards the wall to avoid even glancing at Emma.
Squish.
Forcibly turning in the already narrow bed, my face was squished against the wall.
What did the discomfort of my face being pressed matter when there was a nine-tailed fox sleeping beside me?
At first, I endured the discomfort and kept trying to sleep, but...
Sleep wouldn't come at all, and my face pressed against the wall went beyond uncomfortable to aching.
If I sleep like this, I'll get a stiff neck.
As I was worrying about my cheeks, that was when it happened.
Snore—
From beside me who had turned around, a very faint... regular breathing sound that ordinary people wouldn't notice was heard.
...Emma fell asleep quickly. Was she tired?
As soon as I realized Emma was sleeping, I suddenly felt empty.
I thought Emma was deliberately trying to seduce me... Was I wrong?
Maybe Emma had no ulterior motives and just intended to sleep and leave.
I let out a hollow laugh at the fact that I was the one who got excited over Emma's actions without any thought.
Geez, what on earth am I doing alone?
I definitely can't sleep like this.
I carefully peeled my squished cheek off the wall so as not to wake Emma, then turned my body to sleep more comfortably.
But...
"..."
"..."
What I saw as soon as I turned my body was Emma's glowing eyes.
It would be nice if only Emma's pupils were visible, but...
Emma's skin enveloped in moonlight... and the strap that had carelessly slipped off one shoulder...
I could see it all too clearly.
"..."
Emma didn't say anything, but I heard a voice through her eyes.
A line from a Japanese manga I can't even remember the title of anymore...
“You're finally looking this way.”
One difference was that while that manga was an innocent school story, here there was only a predator-prey relationship.
I was the prey, Emma the predator trying to catch me.
But if I reached out here, I could reverse this relationship.
Me as the predator and Emma as the prey to be devoured by me.
Do I need to hold back anymore…? No, can I even hold back anymore here?
Swish.
My hand, already having lost self-control, was reaching towards Emma.
Passing by her lips where strands of hair still slightly damp from not drying properly were sticking...
My hand headed towards Emma's mouth.
Swish.
I first stroked Emma's lips with my finger.
After freely touching the moist lips reminiscent of in-season fruit, I inserted my thumb into Emma's mouth.
Though flustered by my sudden action... Emma accepted my finger.
Suck.
Emma, who had been so mature, sucked my thumb like a baby sucking a pacifier.
Suck, suck.
At first, she was clumsy and only used her lips...
Then...
Soft.
As if rehearsing for what would happen next, she wrapped her soft tongue around my finger.
"...Ah."
At that blissful sensation, I could no longer hold back and got on top of Emma.
And then like a beast starved for days...
Slurp.
"Mmph... chu..."
I devoured Emma's lips.
Slurp, slurp.
Soon the sound of saliva mixing stickily filled the office.
Emma's tongue movements were clumsy no matter how generously I looked at them.
But the fact that this was the only thing the all-capable secretary Emma was unskilled at excited me even more.
"Mmph... puhah... B-Boss... A little slow... mmph, chu..."
This was probably Emma's first kiss.
Emma would later recall this moment as being hard to breathe.
That was how roughly... somewhat forcefully I explored her tongue.
It felt like I mixed tongues with Emma for hours like that.
When there was more of Emma's saliva than mine in my mouth and Emma, too, had swallowed more of my saliva than her own...
I smiled playfully at the struggling Emma and said, "...Emma, now you try."
"Haah... hah... Pardon?"
"I'll stay still, so you do it."
At my somewhat mischievous words, Emma made a slightly angry expression as if it was too much, but...
Coming to bed, that expression was just laughable.
When I caged Emma with my arms and didn't do anything, Emma reluctantly cupped the back of my head with her hand.
And...
Smooch.
She approached me first and kissed me.
At first, she just bumped lips, pecking like a bird with its beak.
But when I slightly opened my lips with eyes telling her to do more...
Slurp.
Emma hesitantly inserted her tongue into my mouth first.
At first, she just touched her tongue to mine like a child tasting candy for the first time.
Later, as she became a bit more familiar, she carefully licked my tongue like a mother cat licking her kitten.
Lick.
Emma was the typical cold beauty style.
No matter how beautiful Emma was, no one would think of her as cute.
But Emma, who closed her eyes tightly and desperately licked my tongue while pressed against me...
Lick, lick.
Was too cute.
So cute that... I couldn't hold back against.
"Chu... mmph? Mmph..."
Unsatisfied, I wrapped around her tongue once more.
After a long kiss, when I separated our lips and looked down, Emma looked up at me with half-closed seductive eyes.
"Haah... hah..."
"..."
Emma seemed to already anticipate my next action.
Indeed, I was planning to fully devour Emma from now on.
Swish.
I grabbed Emma's thin slip strap and slowly pulled it down.
As Emma's fair naked body was gradually revealed, my heart beat like crazy.
At that moment, Emma, whose clothes were half removed, asked me, "...Boss. I love you… what about you?"
"I love you."
Already dominated by lust, I was impatient and the important thing was to finish undressing Emma.
For that, I could say I love you many more times.
But...
"...Then Boss."
Hearing Emma's next words, I had to stop my hand undressing her.
"You'll always be by my side forever, right?"
"..."
As soon as I heard those words from Emma, I recalled the memory of my first experience in this damn Wild West.
Not as Dokgo Young from Korea... but as Noah of the West, my first experience.
— ...Let's do it one more time, Jenny.
— Haa... Kid. I'm too tired...
— I love you.
She liked hearing words of love.
If I told her I loved her, she would grant even the most burdensome requests.
At that time, seeing she might refuse, I said, “I love you” as if using a free pass.
Then she asked anew.
— ...Then Kid.
— ...Yeah.
— Will you always be by my side forever?
At that time, I was very impatient.
Like now.
Of course.
Even as I answered like that, I was thinking of someday filling up the million dollars and returning home.
Above all, I, who had proudly promised to always be by her side...
…was not by her side now.
Later, that lie turned my blissful first experience into an unpleasant memory.
After that, I couldn't have sexual relations with women for a long time.
Whenever I tried to have a relationship with someone...
— Will you always be by my side forever?
That question echoed in my ears, giving me an ominous feeling that if I couldn't hold back now, I wouldn't be able to return home.
But just because some time had passed, I was about to repeat that mistake from back then.
— ...Then Boss.
— You'll always be by my side forever, right?
My body screamed to quickly answer and finish what I was doing with Emma.
But...
"...Boss?"
"..."
In the end, I couldn't open my mouth.
After a long time passed, the words I finally uttered were...
"...I'm sorry."
The worst thing for both Emma and me.
"...I'm sorry."
"..."
As soon as she heard those words, Emma's eyes sank.
Maybe because my mind was confused, I couldn't exactly tell what emotion was contained in Emma's eyes.
Thud.
Moreover, I didn't have the confidence to keep looking into Emma's eyes, so I got up from my spot and went outside.
"Uwaaaaaaaah!!!!!"
I screamed towards the darkness as loudly as I could, but the lump in my heart wouldn't easily dissolve.
"...Fuck… Damn game. This fucking game."
So I cursed this world for a long time and faced the cold wind before going back inside.
And when I returned...
[I'm sorry, Boss. I'll go back home today.]
"..."
Emma was gone, and only a short letter greeted me.
It seemed Emma had returned home through the back door.
I threw Emma's letter on the ground and laid down on the bed.
The bed was spacious now that I had it to myself again, but sleep wouldn't come.
"...Fuck."
I spent that night wide awake.
Thud thud thud thud.
The one who came to me from dawn, haggard from not sleeping a single moment all night, was Jett.
"Kid! It's a murder case! We've been hit by Zodiac again... Hmm? Y-your face... Are you alright...?"
"...I'm fine, let's go."
At Jett's visit, I gathered my clothes and gun and went out as if I had been waiting.
It felt like I would go crazy if I didn't do anything now.
I needed a target to vent my anger on...