Chapter 7
After my friend left the house, I ordered the streaming equipment I'd picked out in advance and started finishing my commissions again.
Honestly... Even I have to admit that every single one of my clients is a pervert.
All kinds of bizarre fetishes kept popping up.
After finishing one in a fairly short time, I thought I could complete the rest quickly enough, so I opened two more slots and took on two more suckers.
One asked me to draw a saintess being subjected to lewd acts by tentacles, while the other asked me to draw a cat-eared girl being violated by a dog.
...I was hoping to take on something a little more normal and use it as content when I streamed.
I should finish everything before the broadcast, right? That way, both I and my suckers will be happy.
- You seem to be pushing yourself too hard. Take proper breaks as you work.
"I can't draw things this vulgar once I start streaming. I'm planning to stream for a long time, so if I don't draw them now, I'll end up pressed for time."
- Aren't you even getting a nosebleed right now? Working through the night is bad for your health, so stop now and go to sleep.
"A nosebleed? Oh, this is from drawing while thinking about your naked body..."
When I pulled out a tissue to wipe my nosebleed, the Fox Deity grabbed my tail and began screaming.
- Y-You shameless pervert!!! Didn't I tell you to forget that already?!
"How could I forget the masterpiece of my life? Maybe my memory got better after transforming, because I remember it even more vividly now."
- Forget it. If you do not, I shall make you forget by force.
"How am I supposed to forget something that hot? I can't forget it. If I forgot that, I'd be missing out on half of my life."
- Sometimes, suffering such a great loss is not necessarily a bad thing.
"You're really spouting all kinds of dogshit today, just like the mutt you are. Shut up and hurry up and get into position. I can't figure out the composition."
After I scolded the Fox Deity, she floated in the air and struck a pose as if she had no other choice, and I began drawing again while looking at her.
Why do I insist on drawing while looking at the Fox Deity?
Because there's such a huge difference between the drawings I make while looking at her and the ones I make without looking at her.
The Fox Deity seems to possess every kind of beauty in the world.
Even if I can't capture all that beauty in a drawing, including just a tiny fragment of it results in a picture with incredible impact.
Yeah, just like right now.
"This is the first time I've ever gotten turned on by someone who isn't fox beastfolk."
- Hehe, do you understand now? My beauty. Come, praise me! Look up to me! Adore me!
"Ha... I don't want to admit it, but she's genuinely hot, so I can't help it. Well, it's almost finished anyway, so I should send it over and see."
Leaving the Fox Deity, who was displaying endless confidence beside me, I sent my sucker a KakaoTalk message, and before long, he sent me a photo of himself performing a grand prostration of gratitude.
And this isn't even the finished piece yet.
<Thank you so much, artist! I really appreciate you drawing Sex so beautifully.>
<Um... Excuse me, but may I ask why you named your OC Sex?>
<Huh? Are you not familiar with Seax? This is the first time I've encountered someone who drew Seax without knowing what Seax is.>
What kind of vulgar thing is that, for fuck's sake.
Swallowing my words with difficulty, I cautiously asked him another question.
<I was wondering whether you'd mistyped a word and ended up with that name.>
<Ah~ I see what you mean.>
<Seax is literally seax.>
<??????>
<No, there's a separate sword called a seax. Her name is Seax because she carries a seax. It's not Sex.>
<That's a name that could definitely be misunderstood when heard aloud.>
<Well... I suppose so. Since Seax's name is so similar to Sex, some other artists even laugh just hearing the name Seax.>
Well, wouldn't it be strange not to laugh when you heard that name?
If you heard it out loud, you'd probably laugh until your ribs hurt.
After silently reciting that to myself, I became so troubled by the name Seax that I sent him the finished piece and immediately showed him the door.
<Please vacate the slot.>
<Artist, this picture is insanely hot. Could you draw just one more Seax for me? I'll pay double—no, triple!!!>
<I only draw her occasionally for fun, so I'm sorry.>
<No, artist! Just one Seax!!! One more!!! Please!!!>
The sound of that name is seriously fucking awful.
Honestly, wasn't that name chosen on purpose?
It's a name with a real talent for making whoever hears it uncomfortable. Fuck.
Because I didn't want to think about that goddamn Seax anymore, I simply closed the slot and shook my dizzy head, trying to get a grip on myself.
"Phew... That fucking Seax. It's been rummaging around in my head for ages, and it's driving me crazy."
- If you are tired, do not push yourself and take a rest. Have you not already been sitting and working for thirteen hours?
"I only have one more to draw. I ordered it by express delivery, so it'll arrive tomorrow. I'll work for another twelve hours, grab a quick nap, and then start the stream."
Just as the Fox Deity said, I really was pushing myself far too hard.
Because I wanted to stay alive long enough to look at more hot fox-beastfolk manga.
Even if my baby-making equipment disappeared after I entered a loveless contract, the appeal of fox beastfolk would last forever.
Even in this body, if I could still feel lust...
"No, fuck, why have I been having so many weird thoughts since my body changed? It feels like my more depraved urges have gotten stronger."
- Is that not obvious? Humans exercise restraint even when they have desires, but animals do not restrain themselves the way humans do. Animal instinct is strong enough that, unless you stop your vulgar thoughts midway, you will end up trapped in delusions. All the more so for a yokai.
"Then I'm really in trouble. If I go into heat, won't I be completely fucked? No, wait—will I willingly impale myself on a cock?"
- You have been asking about obvious things all along. Ah, and let me warn you in advance: once your heat begins, it would be best if there were no males nearby. You will surely mate without discriminating between species.
Once heat begins, don't keep any males nearby... Right.
How much must the Fox Deity have cranked up my sex drive to spout this kind of nonsense?
I'm seriously losing my mind.
"Other than my ugly appearance becoming pretty, everything is just a penalty, you crazy bitch."
- A penalty? Is that something one eats?
"I mean a disadvantage, a disadvantage. How did turning into a woman make all the advantages disappear and leave me with nothing but disadvantages?"
- A disadvantage? Heat is nothing more than a basic urge in an animal that wants to reproduce. Are you calling that a disadvantage?
"You said I'd have an orgy, didn't you? I'd become a sex-crazed bitch who doesn't discriminate?"
Having lost all reason, I snapped irritably, and the Fox Deity cautiously began to speak while watching my expression.
- Well... Is it not common sense that an animal would have that much reproductive desire? And fox yokai crave their partner's vital essence as well...
"Then how do I stop heat?"
- Unlike humans, animals do not go against the natural order. I believe you understand what I mean.
"So you're saying there's absolutely no way to stop it, you fucking bitch."
I had planned to finish the drawing today, but I was in no state to draw.
Going into heat meant I was guaranteed to become a bottom.
I used to call the TS-bottoming crowd gay every day... and now I was on the verge of becoming a bitch myself.
"No way... This can't be happening, fuck."
Was my denial of the reality right before my eyes amusing to the pathetic god?
The Fox Deity approached me in despair and offered me some warm words of comfort.
- Hehe, giving up makes life easier. Think about it. You get the vital essence you need to live and plenty of pleasure. Is that not killing two birds with one stone?
"That's not killing two birds with one stone. It's getting two hits with one stroke. One TS, two fucking things! Wow!"
- I truly cannot understand you. Why are you trying to avoid a way of gaining both pleasure and vital essence at the same time? If you simply grabbed hold of that exorcist brimming with yang energy, you would have no trouble surviving at all.
"Yeah, as you say, it wouldn't be a problem for me to survive. But my dignity as a man would be crushed. Didn't I tell you at the beginning? I wanted to fuck fox beastfolk; I didn't want to be fucked as one."
- But how you look at it, are you not a female now? You were just like that a moment ago too. The way you were lewdly swishing your tail after being bewitched by that overwhelming yang energy...
"Aaaaaaagh!!! Shut up already!!! Stop calling me a fucking female!!!"
...There was no way I could win a verbal argument with her.
No matter what I said, everything I had done a moment ago became evidence tightening the noose around my neck. I'd kept saying I was going crazy, but now I was truly on the verge of losing my mind.
Sigh... I really didn't want to use this method.
You started this, Fox Deity.
I really held out for as long as I could. Everything wrong here is your fault.
I went to the kitchen and smoothly pulled out a kitchen knife, then spoke to the Fox Deity.
"Hehe... Hehehehe... Can you still call me a female after this?"
- ...You have gone insane beyond belief. Did you truly hate hearing the word female that much?
"Yeah. I'd rather die than go on living while hearing you call me a female. All it takes is one quick cut, so it'll be fine, won't it?"
This time, with no one around to stop me, I raised the kitchen knife to bring it down on my wrist. Only then did the Fox Deity realize how serious the situation was, drop to her knees, and start begging me to forgive her.
- I-I'm sorry... Please don't kill yourself... I did not know you would feel so ashamed about becoming a woman.
"You're only kneeling? Is that all you've done wrong?"
I let out a snort and raised the kitchen knife again, and the Fox Deity spoke to me in an even more desperate voice.
- H-How should I apologize? Just put that down and let us talk!!!
"You want to know how you can apologize? If I tell you what to do, are you willing to do it?"
- If it is not too unreasonable a request... I shall do it!
Finding her rather cute as she gritted her teeth and maintained her confident attitude, I smiled brightly and told her how she could apologize.
"Dogeza."
- ...What?
As she asked again as if she were denying reality, I opened my mouth once more and told her how she could apologize.
"Perform dogeza. Do it sincerely, naked, and I won't stage another suicide stunt. What do you think? It's a reasonable solution, right?"
The Fox Deity's eyes began to tremble violently as she looked at me.