At my words, the Fox Deity's eyes trembled violently; after taking a deep breath, she seemed to make up her mind, glared at me with solemn resolve, and spoke.
- Fine. If I offer you a heartfelt apology, you will stop staging any more suicide stunts, yes?
"I won't. If you're that worried, I can even write a pledge. But you're really going to do it? The exalted Fox Deity is going to give this lowly apostle a sincere dogeza?"
That makes no sense.
She keeps referring to herself as "this one" at the end of every sentence, so her pride must be something else. If she's that proud, wouldn't she choose death over apologizing to me?
Well... Even if she really does a dogeza, I don't mind, since that would turn me on in its own way.
The Fox Deity cleared her throat, blushed, and spoke to me in a small voice.
- If I can take one weakness from you, a heartfelt apology is nothing. A gentleman's revenge is never too late, even after waiting ten years.
"Take your revenge however you like. I'll find a way to deal with things myself."
I paused my drawing for a moment and etched the Fox Deity's embarrassed face into my mind.
...Exactly the face I wanted.
One of the most arousing faces in the world.
An embarrassed face.
If we were to pick the three most arousing faces in adult manga, they would be as follows.
The so-called ahegao face of someone who has gone all the way and climaxed over and over.
The face of a strongman despairing just before being crushed by an overwhelming reality he cannot accept.
Finally, the embarrassed face that appears only in a truly arousing situation where you absolutely must do something you would rather die than do.
Honestly, the first and second are definitely arousing expressions, but since they appear as staple material in most manga, you could call them a little stale.
Don't get the wrong idea; it's not that they aren't arousing.
I've seen enough of the appeal of a fox beastfolk with a sumptuous tail despairing at the sight of a gigantic strongman, only to eventually collapse with an ahegao expression, so I know it well.
Any man would find it impossible to resist if all those conditions were met. The only person who could endure it would be my gay, extreme-furry friend.
I'm telling you, it is arousing. The problem is that it's stale.
By contrast, what about the third?
It appears fairly often, yet there are fewer examples than you'd expect.
It pops up as a special treat once every five or so manga, but when you find someone who draws it really arousingly, it becomes impossible to resist.
Maybe that's why it never gets stale no matter how many times I see it; it's always fresh and thrilling.
But there's something thrilling enough to fry my brain right in front of me now, isn't there?
Ah... I really can't resist this.
The Fox Deity bestowed upon me the incredible reward of making an embarrassed expression along with one full of contempt.
And that's not all. Perhaps she really intended to perform a naked dogeza, because the clothes she was wearing began slowly slipping off.
- ...Do not stare so blatantly. I feel like gouging out your eyes.
"If you gouge out my eyes, you'll become less attractive and won't be able to gather vital essence. They say times have changed and even being one-eyed has become a moe trait, but there are still more than enough people in real life who hate one-eyed people."
- Do you take me for someone who does not know something so simple? People's tastes do not change easily even as the times change. Maybe over the course of the ancient eras before I even existed, but a mere few hundred years is not enough to change them.
"Is that because you've lived for hundreds of years? You're a genuine old fossil despite that pretty appearance... If you're going to perform a dogeza, hurry up. I feel like I'm about to lose my mind."
- Do not rush me. I was going to do it now anyway.
As her clothes slowly slid down, revealing her round, milky-white shoulders, I began to taste blood in my mouth.
"Blood...? Why am I suddenly bleeding?"
Is it because I'm tired?
No. I've been forcing myself to keep going through the night on sheer willpower, but even so, it makes no sense for my nose to be bleeding this heavily.
It's only been one day, hasn't it?
I only stayed up for one night, not two days, so it makes no sense for my nose to be bleeding this heavily.
As I hurriedly pulled a tissue from the box on my desk, the Fox Deity instead asked me with a calm expression,
- Your nose is bleeding quite heavily. Are you all right?
"I'm fine. Keep going. If you don't hurry, I feel like I'll get dizzy and collapse."
- Your body has already collapsed. What do you mean, falling over just because I showed you a little cleavage?
At her words as she looked down at me as if I were pathetic, I finally came to my senses, tore my dizzy gaze away, and collapsed onto the floor.
"Ugh... Fuck. Is it because I saw something too arousing?"
- Perhaps. My body at its peak was beautiful enough to make even the loveliest flower in existence look ugly.
She met my eyes, then smiled sweetly and opened her mouth.
- Will you have me continue? You look as if you are in danger.
"Hehe... If I were the sort to give in just because my nose started bleeding, I wouldn't have brought it up in the first place. Keep going. Even if I perish here, I'll see your naked body before I die."
Once a man draws his sword, he has to at least cut a radish.
If I let this opportunity pass, I might never get to see the Fox Deity perform a dogeza again.
I blocked the blood flowing from my nose with tissues, slapped my own cheek to steady my gaze, and spoke to her.
"What are you waiting for? I said keep going. Is threatening you with suicide not even frightening anymore?"
- What a truly vulgar bitch. To go so far as to wager your life just to see the naked body of the deity you worship—the force of that determination is admirable in its own way.
"Stop saying weird things and show me that arousing figure..."
I tried to continue, but the moment I looked at the Fox Deity's cleavage again—
Fwoosh!
My nosebleed would not stop; blood began flowing out and staining the floor.
"Huh...?"
I had definitely plugged it tightly with tissues, so why?
Unlike before, I was less tired and my mind was perfectly clear. So why?
Before I could finish thinking, my body suddenly grew heavy, and my stomach began churning violently.
"Urgh... Uweeeeeeegh!!!"
I couldn't even think about going to the bathroom; I simply vomited up the contents of my stomach, and seeing it, the Fox Deity clicked her tongue and scolded me.
- An ordinary human would go mad and die just from seeing my collarbones, so your desire must be unusually strong. You held out without losing your mind until you saw my cleavage.
"Huff... huff... What does that mean?"
- Exactly what I said. Even a highly trained monk, or a warrior who has honed himself and emptied his mind to reach a higher state, would see my body and have his lust boil over until he went mad. The fact that you are still alive could be called a miracle.
"Then did you let me see it on purpose? A god who's this fucking insane can't be in her right mind."
- Hehe, my apostle is already insane. Why should the god of an insane apostle be sane? I am sorry. When you showed no reaction even after seeing my collarbones, I became curious and ended up showing you my cleavage as well.
The Fox Deity put her loosened clothes back in order and bowed her head to apologize to me.
- I will be careful to ensure this does not happen again. It was entirely my fault.
"No, this isn't your fault."
- I nearly killed my one and only apostle through carelessness. And you still say it was not my fault?
"Yeah, it's not your fault. It's my fault for collapsing without even getting to see something arousing."
Right, this was unmistakably my fault.
I'm not a virgin, so how could I nearly die just from seeing the dark valley inside a little soft flesh?
It shouldn't be possible.
She praised me, saying it was impressive enough that I had seen her cleavage and nothing more, but to me, her words were no different from an insult.
If my desire for sex was lacking, that meant my love for fox beastfolk was lacking.
Those words were tantamount to saying that I did not truly like fox beastfolk.
Feeling an unbearable sense of humiliation, I approached the Fox Deity and said,
"...Again."
- What?
"I still haven't received a dogeza. Let's start over from the beginning."
The Fox Deity gazed at my wavering eyes, wore a blank expression, and spoke to me in a voice of utter disbelief.
- Did you not just say I nearly died? In case you did not hear me, I will say it again. You still lack enough vital essence and demonic power to look at my body. It must have been a miracle that you endured that much on nothing but your greed. If I lower my clothes any further, you will certainly die.
"No? I won't die. I absolutely won't die. You humiliated me. What? My lust only reaches as far as looking at the valley between your tits? Don't bullshit me. My lust isn't limited to something that trivial."
- That is reckless bravado. Nothing in this world is more foolish than failing to know yourself. You have already proved that your greed is enormous; what use would it be to prove it any further? Stop acting tough for no reason and go to sleep.
"I told you, I still haven't received my dogeza. Take off your clothes. Right now."
- ...You really are hell-bent on dying. Fine. Since things have come to this, if your soul goes mad and disappears, I will take over and use that body. You have no complaints, do you?
To her, speaking in a murderous voice, I replied with a sunny smile,
"Of course not. If I die like this, wouldn't it be a good death? I wonder if everyone in hell would look up to me as a real man's man."
- Pfft... I am going to say there is no bigger idiot in existence than you. To wager your life just to see the Fox Deity's breasts... You may be my apostle, but your foolishness reaches the heavens.
With a sigh, she began removing the neatly arranged clothes she was wearing.
One layer.
Her delicate, rounded shoulders were cautiously revealed again.
The rims of my eyes began to sting.
The next layer.
The lewd valley I had seen earlier emerged once more.
The taste of blood began to spread in my mouth.
A little more.
Just a little more.
My affection for fox beastfolk couldn't possibly end at a lewd valley like that.
Even as blood flowed from my nose and bloody tears flowed from my eyes, I watched the Fox Deity undress.
And when she removed the next layer and revealed the fruit of her perfect form—
My vision went black.